Treadmill

 

You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith – Mary Manin Morrissey.

I was walking on the treadmill this morning at the Y.  (I like to make the machine have a big incline with a pretty decent walking pace.)  As I got into my workout I increased my speed.  I soon realized that if I only would run rather than struggle to walk fast enough to try and keep up, then I would have such an easier time.  As that thought crept in, so did the fear!  I have never actually run on the treadmill before.  I am not a runner, I have never liked to run, but it just seemed silly to struggle walking fast.  It might sound funny, but I felt like a child learning to walk – I really wanted to take the step but I had fear.  I was so afraid that I would either fly off the machine, not be able to do it, and/or make a fool out of myself.   I finally took that step, and did it!  Now, I didn’t last as long as I would like to running, but that will come!  I took that step! 

It might sound funny, but taking that first step in the direction of our goals is always the hardest!  I might not get to my goals the way I picture, but I will not let fear keep me from finding a way to reach them!  I have all the faith in the world!